why i always ended up of being like this?

u know what, i constantly heard that. what you have in your mind when you're angry is always not right or rational, and so do the feeling of lonely. I think whatever decision you made when you feel extreme lonely will be all wrong. i guess the influence same great as the feeling of madness. Maybe anger goes to a hard way while lonely goes to a sad way. But both make u making a un-rational choice or make up a stupid minded. so my conclusion is, madness and lonely both possessed the power of letting you to make a negative decided.